Sometimes I lack something epic; something that takes my breath away. I need something awesome, using the proper definition: Extremely impressive or daunting; inspiring great admiration, apprehension, or fear. I want something legendary.
I want to read epic things. I want to read about King Arthur and Camelot. I want to read about Bilbo and Gandalf. I want to read about Zeus and Hades. I want to read about damsels in distress, heroes in danger, evil being conquered, dragons, fairies, magic, elves, adventure.
I want to do epic things. I want to explore unknown lands, invent something useful, discover something amazing, meet inspiring people, see the good, the bad and the ugly in the world. I want to see what I can see, do what I can do, wonder all that I can wonder.
I have a definite lack of epicness. I need to feel inspired. I need to be rejuvenated. It’s like I need to have an electric shock. I feel limp. Like I’m floating through life. Like everything I read is fluff. Like all the movies I see are… either horribly scripted, horribly acted, horribly filmed, horribly directed… or all of the above. Like all the things I do are automatic reflexes. I’m performing the motions of life, the things required or expected of me. The things I do for “fun” these days are also uninspiring. Watching TV or a movie, sleeping, eating, wandering around aimlessly. That’s my problem. I feel aimless. I need an aim. I need to be aimful.
I think that’s why I want something epic—because it’s aimful.
I tried to watched Merlin, this TV show on Netflix Instant watch. I will probably continue to try to be inspired by it. However, it is just in general a horrible show. It’s an awesome premise, the story of young Merlin. But… Oh Dear LORD is it predictable, poorly made, and half-heartedly acted. I want desperately to love it. It’s just hard to force yourself to perceive something as awesome (see above definition).
When I get home (10 days bitches!) I am going to DIVE into mythology. Favorite thing about summer is that I can basically do what I want. And I am going to submerse myself in several things. Italian, fairy tales, and other EPIC THINGS.
I keep using this term epic. There are so many things. I guess when I say epic it is the classic tales of adventure, fantasy, fairy tales, legends, myths… It’s a vague term I admit, but I have a vague sense of it. I WANT IT and I’ll look just about anywhere to find it.
My first step is King Arthur. If the TV show Merlin did anything it was inspire me to delve deeper into the legends of Camelot.
While I was thinking about this issue I realized a kind of exciting revelation: I could write my own epic story. In fact, I have had an epic story boiling in my brain for as long as I can remember but it seems stuck in my head and I’m a little afraid of writing it down. That will be summer goal number… whatever. I am going to start that story.
This story is unlike anything I have ever written. It has one fundamental difference. It’s… A novel.
Yes. That’s right. I am going to start writing a novel. A novel I have been telling myself I would write for…ever.
But first. I read.
if you're looking for something epic to watch, watch doctor who. from the beginning, or if you don't have the time, start from series 5. there is so much epic adventure to be had, and it's probably one of the most inspiring shows i've ever experienced.
ReplyDeleteAWESOME! I've actually been thinking about starting it. I have many many friends who are big fans. I've just never gotten around to it. Thanks for the recommendation! Be sure to read on, and lend your thoughts often, discussion is always welcome. :)
ReplyDeleteHehe, in this text you described exactly what I feel right now. Actually this is how I got here, searching for epic stuff.
ReplyDeleteI see it's been a while since you've written this, maybe you've found what you were looking for all this time...At least I know I am on the right way, I can feel it, but every time I get close it just slips through my fingers...Or maybe this is like an unknown map, when I get to the end of the high lighted zone, a bit more is revealed from the darkness. I just hope it's not endless.